Honestly? I don't know why I'm here.
Okay, I lied. I know exactly why I'm here, I'm just a little surprised that I am. Here in front of the computer isn't unusual, here, looking out over the abyss of unemployment, that's why I'm here. This is new to me. In the almost 30 years that I've been working (starting at ~14) I've never been out of a job and I've never been laid off.
Yet here I am.
Technically I'm not laid off - I'm "transitioning out". And as of April 29, 2011 at approximately 5pm mountain time, I am unemployed.
I am (was) an application developer for a Very Large Company. The environment I develop in is somewhat obscure (Lansa) which makes finding a job a bit of a challenge. I'm damned good at what I do (making VL do things it's not supposed to do), but there aren't a lot of shops out there looking for my skill set - at least very few that are posting in all the Usual Places. In a difficult economy, that's a little (okay, a lot) scary.
I'm optimistic that something will come along. Ask me in a week... two weeks, three weeks, that may change, but something better will - has to - come along.
I don't know why I started this. I'm normally a content consumer, not provider. I don't know if I'm any good at it or if I will have the time or drive to continue working on it. But in this place, and in this time, I need an outlet. Is this vanity? Catharsis? A support group of one? An excuse for me to rant and post pictures of my cats? I don't know. As the Doctor said in The Eleventh Hour, "I don't know yet. Still cooking."
I promise not to just talk about my jobless state - after all, the world continues to turn regardless my employment status.
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