I've been dilly-dallying with this all day, but haven't had the time to finish what I started. Which is kind of a parable for my last week here.
So much time, so little to do. <pause> Wait a minute... Strike that that... Reverse it.... Thank you.
The most difficult part about this last week? Letting go. Saying to myself "I can't start anything new, can't finish what I started, can't let minutia keep me from getting done what I can get done."
It seems there are people here - well, not necessarily here, in the office, but in the Outside World (corporate), are having trouble accepting that I'm gone after Friday. Still getting requests for researching help desk tickets, and being asked to provide estimates on projects that I will have no continuing role in. I can't do it all, but I'm so heavily invested in some of these (professionally and personally) that I seem to be unable to say "no".
I keep telling myself "it's not my problem anymore" but dammit, it is. I feel like I'm leaving behind too many strands, too much unfinished business. And while I say that Friday I will Not Do Anything, I know I'm going to get roped in to something somehow somewhere some way.
Right now I don't see panic as I leave the office on my last day. I see relief. Once I walk out the door for good, I can say to myself "I'm done. That's it. It really isn't my problem anymore." Yes, the panic will come (and has paid me more than a few visits in the last 6 weeks) but I just want this to be over. Done. I want to look it in the rearview mirror and say "I've done as much as I could do."
So much time, so little to do. <pause> Wait a minute... Strike that that... Reverse it.... Thank you.
The most difficult part about this last week? Letting go. Saying to myself "I can't start anything new, can't finish what I started, can't let minutia keep me from getting done what I can get done."
It seems there are people here - well, not necessarily here, in the office, but in the Outside World (corporate), are having trouble accepting that I'm gone after Friday. Still getting requests for researching help desk tickets, and being asked to provide estimates on projects that I will have no continuing role in. I can't do it all, but I'm so heavily invested in some of these (professionally and personally) that I seem to be unable to say "no".
I keep telling myself "it's not my problem anymore" but dammit, it is. I feel like I'm leaving behind too many strands, too much unfinished business. And while I say that Friday I will Not Do Anything, I know I'm going to get roped in to something somehow somewhere some way.
Right now I don't see panic as I leave the office on my last day. I see relief. Once I walk out the door for good, I can say to myself "I'm done. That's it. It really isn't my problem anymore." Yes, the panic will come (and has paid me more than a few visits in the last 6 weeks) but I just want this to be over. Done. I want to look it in the rearview mirror and say "I've done as much as I could do."
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